Writing Fiction Is Hard

In September I posted about writing fiction again:

So I've decided to try and write about an idea that has been rolling around in my brain for the better part of 5 years.
God, its hard. Writing a short story in the EVE universe is liberating because you have do not have to build a world and you can to cut right to the point. But writing a story that is going to require you to build a world in the process and decide how that world works and what living in it would be like is daunting.
But I'm not getting any younger, and now is the time to try.
Wish me luck.

I have good news and bad news.

The good news is that I've been making progress at this project; the bad news is everything else.

I don't have as much free time as I thought, life is just busier than anticipated and a bi-weekly teaching position at the dojo I train at has sucked even more of that precious commodity. And I'm tired like all the time from everything.

But most of all writing is hard!

I mean, writing short stories in the EVE universe has some advantages: I don't need to build the story's universe because all the readers know about it, I don't need to flesh out characters very much because its a short story, and even the long form story telling I did had the advantage of not having a larger overarching plot, they were small self contained events.

What I'm trying to write now requires me to not only tell a story, but introduce a universe, its unique rules, what it feels like, how it works, is it logically consistent, where everything is, what everything is named, and will it all fit together in the end.

And then I could get past the block I ran into in the second scene of chapter one. *Sad face*

I find as I make progress my confidence in this project has diminished somewhat, as in am I making a good compelling story? Or am I just indulging the day dreams of a middle aged man?

Gah.

But I am making progress. Slowly, word by word, and hopefully I can complete at least this book, even if no one reads it.